Missing

Missing children…we hear of this more so often nowadays. Whether is kidnapping, child trafficking, we question how and why it does happen. Our children are hopes of our future, the lifeline of many parents and they are also the constant reminders as to how beautiful our world is through their eyes.

A child’s innocence can easily be robbed in the blink of an eye. As adults and parents, we do our best to protect the innocence for as long as we can, because we know this purity will be contaminated in the process, more so when untoward incidence happens.

Recently, we just had another case of a missing child. Yes, perhaps the parents were wrong in leaving their kids alone in the car, but this is really not the time to point fingers at anyone. Losing the child is already a punishment heavy enough for any parents to bear.

No parent should have to go through the pain of losing their child. It is a pain that no word can ever, ever described.

I can only pray for the safe return of this child to their family. Wherever he may be now, I believe God has his eyes on him and pray for strength that the parents shall not lose hope.

Empty and abandoned?

Have you ever ever wondered, how fulfilling your life is….and all of a sudden it feels empty? I mean literally empty. Almost like whatever that seemed to fulfill your life suddenly seemed to have disappeared?

You wonder why? Then you wonder if God had decided to take leave and not tell us?

I am sure there were moments when you felt like He had just walked away…and leave us hanging …wondering…unknowing…

It is scary, yes. BUT, that does not mean He had abandon us. It is a quiet time for us, to realize and re-affirm how much we believe in Him when He seemed to had disappear. It is a time for us to reflect and strengthen our faith in Him. It is when He seemed distance that we must remain strong or for some of us become stronger.

Yes, we may be shaken a little thinking that float of faith is gone. But believe me, He will never ever leave us….it is us whom needs to be checked. Do we feel threatened when the emptiness set in? Do we start to doubt His loyalty? Do we question why we think He has abandon us? Is there a lesson that He wants us to learn from this ‘emptiness’?

There will always be something better and greater that He had planned for us…we just need to trust that the ‘emptiness’ is only temporary…it is meant for us to flush out our negativity and doubts. Focus on the fact that He will never leave us empty.

2013...we made it here!

Phew! 2013…we made it here after all. We said goodbye to 2012 and of course, all of us would have received messages of well-wishes, good blessings, blah blah blah…you get the drift.

We have all crossed over to the New Year with hopes and resolutions of better things to come our way whilst we leave the bad stuff of 2012 behind. Some could be more cynical and narcissist about life.

Whether is 2012 or 2013 (and many more years to come), it can only get as good as we all make it. Yes, I can see some of you nodding in agreement, or perhaps some of you may think this Psycho Bitch lives in Fairyland. Whatever you choose to believe, it is a new year after all. Look at it as a clean sheet of paper, a fresh new opportunity for us to draw great colourful stuffs on it or leaving it blank, or maybe, tear that sheet of paper away.

The year had just started, it is still clean, is still good. It is, really, up to us, what we want to draw on this clean sheet of paper.

So, go ahead….make the choice or choices that will best suit you and what works for you. At the end of the day, like my mom would tell me…we must all be able to go to bed with a clean and clear conscience.

Have a blast in 2013 peeps!

Hang on to it! TGIF!

WOW! This is it …the last Friday of 2012….didn’t realize it, did you?

Suddenly your heart is racing…”oh dear, is it?”…”WTF ?!!!”…”Someone stop time!”…blah blah blah…

Does it really matter if it was the last Friday of 2012? Seriously….are we that driven by the months and years? Is it because we have had resolutions not fulfilled? Or have we forgotten to complete certain tasks or promises not kept?

In my humble opinion, it does not matter what day or if it’s the last Friday of the year, because the days will repeat itself over and over again. If we had never learned our lessons yet about keeping to our resolutions or promises or wishes, try revisiting the expectations which we have placed on ourselves (and others around us)….perhaps we were not being realistic…maybe…something to ponder upon as we breathe our way in the next 3 days to 2013….

2013...are we there yet?

Merry Boxing Day from Kuala Lumpur! Yes…Christmas came and gone in a jiffy. Now we have exactly 5 days before we move our asses into 2013.

Christmas was wonderful and I wished all of you had the same great celebration. Whether you partied hard or just quiet dinner celebration, it does not matter, as long as we all enjoyed it the way we wanted it. After all it was about sharing….hope you shared good feelings, good thoughts and most of all forgiveness to all those who trespass against us.

As we move towards 2013, some of us may have started thinking about resolutions, reflections of 2012…blah blah blah…

No matter what had happened in 2012….and we don’t know what’s going to happen in 2013…in the mean time….enjoy the next 5 days…

211212...coming?

Goodness is Wednesday already?? Much talk about Friday 211212….really…?

Does it even feel like we are nearing “end-of-the-world”? Do you know of anyone who truly believes it will be end of the world? Are you one of those who is just taking life as it comes? Or have you completely forgotten about it?

The world is currently miserable enough as it is (read the news …and all you get are who-is-shooting-who kind of news)…there are much to do and enjoy in our lives. Why do we want to get bogged down with 211212 ?

If it’s going to be the end of the world, so be it. Really, there is nothing you or me or anyone can do to stop it.

So, stop worrying, make the best of your time with your loved ones and people whom you cherish and who adores you.

Counting, counting....

It is Friday, you say? How time flies when we are having fun (or not for some of us).

14 Dec 2012….we have exactly 17 days before 2013 creeps up on us. Is it time to make new year resolutions, again? We seem to be making those lists year after year but we never seemed to be able to fulfill all of them, or at least we think we did at least ONE.

Is it about making new resolutions? Or do we look back and make a re-collection and memories of all that’s happened to us in 2012….and I mean good and bad experiences and anything in between.

Personally, whatever you choose to do, do it only because it makes you happy. If you are going to feel miserable about it and cannot handle it, then don’t bother. Else, learn to use the year’s experiences to help you move into 2013 with much meaning.

At the end of the day, only you can control what you want to do (don’t even bother with what has happened…we’ve all been there and we know EXACTLY how that can makes us feel).

So, 17 days…go ahead…either make new 2013 resolutions, recycle from 2012 resolution, make 2012 memories album….whatever that makes you happy!

Oh wait a minute…did I forget Christmas? Merry Xmas y’all!

121212...What else!

Good morning peeps! Yes it is THE date 121212…THE date that will never be repeated ever again.

Some of you may wonder…”what’s the big deal? Is just a number”, “is just another day”, “oohhh! Something special’s going to happen”, “yikes! You mean we are halfway through Dec 2012 already!!!”….etc…etc and the list will just go on and on…If at all, Facebook will be plastered with many, many (pauses to exhale) update about 121212.

Does it matter what date it is, really? Well, whatever date it may be, any day or date should be a good one for everybody….only if we want it to.

So, peeps, go ahead, 121212 or not, go make it work for yourself!

Knock, Knock…anyone there?

It’s been a while now since I had updated my blog…wait…is it still alive…some of you may ask? Yes, I am very much so…except that I must say mid-life number ?? (God knows how many times I have gone thru it!) was making its way back into my life.

Much has happened. Am just gonna take my time to break it down into pieces onto this blogsite.

Till then, let me just dust off some cobwebs from the corners of my blogsite….

Back on track

WOW! It’s been a long long time since I updated this blog! Why? Some of you may wonder….well it’s just because I was busy trying to figure out my next life’s path. I am glad to say I have that sorted out. I am now back to full time agency work and loving it! But then again it’s only been 2 months since I got back into the work grind…let’s see if this feeling will stay. But for now, my path is clear. 4 years of sabbatical have given me a clearer picture of who I am, what my passions are and where I am heading.

So folks, Psycho Bitch is back !

Working gurl!

Hello, hello….it’s been a while since I updated PB Blog. Yes, been busy much. Deciding on the next move in my life, of which a decision which was signed, sealed, delivered couple of weeks ago now sees PB back into the corporate world…well at least “semi-return”.

What am I rumbling about, you wonder? I am back into the corporate club….back into the advertising agency. Well, at least trying to. I am starting off with a 3 days/week for next 3 months. Sort of ease myself back into the corporate system and try not to shock myself! Even putting on my make-up and deciding what to wear on day 1 was hell….after 4 years of just donning on cycling jerseys, casual clothes and t-shirts!

Anyway, today is Day 2. Let’s see how I will perform…psychologically….

My Fair Lady

Recently I was introduced to WL, a not-so-young-anymore lady from a gym. She is quite a character, and I was told that she had NEVER dated in her entire life….which could also possibly means she could be a virgin…in so many ways….I was thinking “seriously? Not dated EVER?” How is that even possible…till I met her!

There are reasons why men are attracted to women (or certain things that women do which will definitely turn men off!). As for WL, think she broke every rule there is in “what not to do to turn men off”. For example:

1. Men like women who smells nice…..WL is exactly the opposite! I had told a mutual friend of ours to tell WL about her BO…for her own bloody sake and also ours! (mental note to self: stay away during her menstruation period!)

2. Men (apparently) are attracted to how a woman walks…hmmm…WL does not walk, instead she trots. (OK, WN and I are fixing that for her!)

3. Confidence and EQ ….another key components that men are attracted to. Don’t get me wrong but WL is a very confident woman who has made it for herself (psstt: she owns a bloody Mercedes S class and a successful engineer!) not to mention an attitude of “My way or the highway”. Then again, that sort of confidence could spell trouble as she can be very commanding and demanding. NOT.GOOD! This kind of aggressive confidence normally does translate to rather lower-than-normal EQ……enough said…

4. OK, nothing can be more disgusting that seeing some form of “5 o’clock shadow” just under the armpits! (hmmm….and I wonder if this problem could have led to problem No 1 above….wonder?)

5. Naggers!!!! Men despise that, right? Well, need I say more…..?

Despite it all, I still like WL for who she is. WN and I just need to work through some grooming issues for WL, and fingers crossed, hopefully she will meet a great man because I am a firm believer that we are all made for someone out there……

Oh ! that is so embarassing!

Embarassing moments? Haven’t we all gone through some?

Well, I had my fair share of embarrassing moments too, and is fun to just look back and have a good laugh at myself (although it was embarrassing when it happened):

1. I had tried taking money from ATM with my gym membership card (hmmm…sounds familiar?)

2. Made a call to a different Jacqueline (reminder to self: please edit Jacqueline’s name on mobile and save it differently), and spoke for a good 1 minute before realizing it was not the Jacqueline I had meant to call (and I was wondering why she had no idea what I was talking about)

3. Left one early morning to buy coffee in my boxer shorts….and was completely oblivious till I had GOT HOME!

4. For some strange reasons, attempted to give my favourite juice store my gym membership card whilst collecting my juice drink. (you don’t want to know her look ……by the way, she is gay and she probably thought I was trying to hit on her by giving her a free gym membership!)

5. This is probably one of those moments every woman will connect with….have you ever packed your bags for gym and totally forgot one of the other undergarments (or both in my case!)……need I say more?

Take some time peeps, look back and enjoy your funny (or embarrassing) moments…depending on how you choose to see them!

p/s: please feel free to drop me a line or two of your funny (or embarrassing moments) too…laughter is to be shared!

I am who I am

Well, for those of you who know me well, you know I have always been a larger-than-life person, free-spirited, exuberant and nothing-seems-to-daunt-me type personality!

I never realized that just being THOSE can be difficult for some people to handle. I have never meant any harm to people (although occasionally I do go psycho on idiots who irritate the shit out of me!)

Ok, wait a minute, I am not going emo here…..is just that this was pointed out to me recently and it’s been disturbing for me. Should I even care?

This is who I am and if you like me, like me for who I am……

I am back!

Hello everyone! Psycho Bitch is still alive and well. I have been busy with my dad, who’s just had a heart bypass and is now nursing at home. So, kept my blog under the radar for a while.

Nevertheless, hope you guys have been keeping yourself in high spirits too!

Now that things are a lot more settled, it is time to bring Psycho Bitch back to life!

So, expect few more blogs coming up soon….

Good Old Daddy...

Hello everyone! Yes, Psycho Bitch is still alive, very much so. Wondering why PB have gone silent for so bloody long eh?

Well, my dad was admitted to hospital 4 weeks ago….matter of the heart, again. And he just had his bypass last week….all went well, recovering steadily and rapidly. My dad is completely like a new person. Almost like a new lease of life given to him! Thank God and to those of you who’s been praying for him!

Searching for myself

Have you ever tried googling yourself…or anyone for that matter?

While having my coffee this morning, I decided to google search myself. OMG! Seriously, speak about the age of internet! There WERE information about me, how to locate and contact me! Even my bloody Twitter account was available…lol! There were even pictures of me from my first triathlon…scaryyyyyy!!!

Oh, I googled for Hammy 3 and LB….yep, found you guys too!

Privacy? Whatever happened to that???

I am not alone...

Those who know me personally…can vouch that I can be quite OCD (Hammy 3…note keyword “quite”). Nooooo….I am not completely OCD to the point where I must wash my hands 10,000 times, or check the door shut 5x.

But, at times, I can drive some people mad, ie…like making sure my bags NEVER EVER touches the floor, my toilet roll must face a certain way, my mobile must never face down..etc etc etc…

Just when I thought nobody can be more OCD than me…AHA! How wrong I was when I came face to face with an OCD counterpart couple of days back at my manicurist’s.

JY (my beloved manicurist) and I were happily chatting as she was doing my manicure, when she suddenly startled me with “OH SHIT! 10 minutes more…FARK….she coming lah!!!”

And here I was shocked with the sudden exclamation, soon discovered that one of JY’s most OCD client was swinging by.

This was what JY HAD to do before MISS OCD arrived:

1.Wipe down the sofa….with disinfectant…AND MIND you, JY had to make sure that the disinfectant ‘smell’ stayed on for as long (and as strong) as it can, else MISS OCD will throw a hissy fit!

2. Scrub down the sink (where we soak our feet for pedicure) with Dettol…over and over and over again…THEN spray it with more disinfectant.

3. Take out MISS OCD’s ‘own’ cushion from the store….

4. Disinfect the door handle!!! (I subsequently found out that MISS OCD opens the door with her elbows, not her hands! Else she will scrub down like crazeeeee)

5. Poor JY even had to spray her place with room disinfectant (one of those thingy from Ambi Pur)

I could see the stress in JY’s face…and apparently all of these were only for PRE-ARRIVAL of MISS OCD! Yes, I was told there is normally more stuff to do when she ARRIVES……well fortunately for me, I didn’t get to stay and meet MISS OCD.

However, is good to know I am not alone and there are worse cases out there…..

Eeewww...dirty dirty!

The gym….a place where we all go sweat out our fats, pressure from work and for some of us, pleasure from the pain inflicted upon ourselves.

But, have you ever wondered about gym cleanliness? After all, you get 1001 blokes and chicks using every goddamn machines and apparatus, coupled with their very sweaty hands (depending on your luck, the guy may not even have washed his hands after pee pee) and bods.

I could, more or less, through observation point out areas in the gym where it could be listed as the few dirtiest, or should I say ‘germ-iest’!

Here goes:

1. Mats – have you ever seen number of bodies that lie on those mats?

2. Dumbells, barbells, weight machines – if the guy before you had washed his hands after pee pee, then is slightly better. Else, just imagine all those hands (god knows where they have all been!).Better yet, if the guy before you, out in a pair of really, really short tight underwear……suggest you bring a bottle of Dettol to disinfect that seat!

3. Bicycle seat – I don’t even wanna go near this one….the number of sweaty ass……hope you clean your bikes before jumping onto it!

4. Toilets and shower – do you really want me to elaborate on this? I am sure for those of us who hang out at the gym, we have seen what we don’t need to see.

So, the next time you are at the gym, think about the hygiene and maybe walking around with a packet of disinfectant wipes would be a great idea!

Not that Energized!

Did my first race after my operation last Saturday – The Energizer Night Run 2011. I ran ok, not too bad for someone who hasn’t run for good 2 months.

But what was even more disappointing was not my run, but more of the organizer. It was such a poorly organized marathon that I have encountered personally.

*The first water station encountered was at the 4^th km mark…hmmm…normally there would be one in sight at the 2km mark…you cannot assume that everyone in the race are experienced runners and that they can wait till 4km mark to hydrate.

*Surprisingly what was at the 2km mark was a St John’s station for runners to ease their cramps…seriously…at the 2km mark…plzzzz…we were just warming up!

*Water was not served in cups. Instead we had the options of either grabbing a 1.5litre bottle or can/s of Gatorade!!!! Goodness gracious…how do u expect us to finish the 1.5 litre bottle of water at one go???!!! You damn stupid organizer! Hence, can we all imagine the wastage and ALLLLLLL the plastic bottles thrown in the circuit!

*As we cross the finish line, there was not even a MILO van in sight nor water nor Gatorade! (And I found out much later that all of these were parked behind part of the building, where you will first need to fight the damn 2km queue for Goodie Bag, BEFORE you get to the drinks!). In most races, these are all available and IN SIGHT couple of meters away FROM the finishing line!

*I don’t even wanna talk about the Goodie bag collection…let’s not even start!

All I know is I paid RM 50 for entry fee, RM 10 for farking parking in some stupid palm oil estate which had no proper lighting, RM 15 for toll, RM 15 for petrol…..

To the Energizer Night Run organizers and the brand owners….do you seriously think you will be getting the same support from the runners in 2012? Think again….